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[06 Dec 2005|06:34pm] |
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I cannot finish this semester. I'm going to fail miserably. We finish up 2 days before Christmas (score another for Rita) and I just don't think I can handle the workload. I was supposed to go sit in on another class today on top of what I already had to do but I decided that it would just confuse me worse and the best thing to do was for me to stay up tonight and teach myself the material. The teacher doesn't explain herself well but to her credit she makes great handouts and posts them for us to download so I end up learning more from that anyway.
I'm starting to get sick and I don't have time for that either. I've been eating like shit lately too so I need to cut that out. I still haven't found a place nor have they started working on mine. So Christmas and New Year's will be spent on the air mattress it looks like. Which by the way is missing a peice so it can't be blown up anymore. I'm off to study now. Say a prayer to whomever you pray too that I won't be a failure or homeless forever.
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| Rita pics |
[28 Nov 2005|09:22pm] |
The ones with the car and the tree are at my grandmas. The blurry one is boats that washed up miles from where they were. The last ones are at my townhouse. These do no justice to what things really looked like around town and things still look pretty bad and we're now 2 months after the storm.
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| Shit! |
[28 Nov 2005|09:07pm] |
So I had a potential house for like 5.2 seconds today until we found out that it was sold this morning. I went this afternoon and got a quote on homeowners insurance which I was sure was going to be waaay to expensive but ended up being $41.66 a month. So after I sit and wait for the lady to figure out how to work her computer to give me the quote I go home and find that the house is sold. I had to move everything out of the room I've been staying in to another room that feels like a closet so I went to go get some coffee to maybe try and make me feel a bit better but I get home and it tastes like ass. I feel like I'll be living on an Aero bed for the rest of my life. I still haven't heard from the landlord which is the equivilent of hearing a big fat, "screw you!".
Tommorrow is my 7:45 am class (thank you again Rita for making me get up even earlier)and it's so hard to stay awake because the teacher sucks. Speaking of Rita, I'm going to post the pics right now that I've been meaning to post forever.
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[25 Nov 2005|08:37pm] |
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I have decided to go back and make most of my entries public because I have several friends that want to read it but don't have LJ. I got a letter from FEMA today that said I wasn't getting any money to assist with my storage fees or anything else because I have insufficient damage. I don't understand how not be able to live in your house because the mold will kill you is insufficient damage. The FEMA man that came out told me to throw away my couches and bed which thank God I didn't or I would really be stuck. Then tp make matters worse I got a letter from the storage unit and they've raised their rates. They know that no one has anywhere to put the stuff so they think they can charge what they want and it just makes me so mad.
The whole finding a place to rent thing is going crappy too. There is absolutely nothing anywhere.
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It's funny how a natual disaster can turn your world upside down. You take for granted things like the huge townhouse you live in and the ability to live on your own and do what you want, the little bar you go to after work to spend half of the tips you made that night, being able to go to Wal-Mart anytime day or night, and getting McDonalds after you leave the bar at 3 am. Instead, you're looking at everything in that townhouse wishing to God you would've cleaned before you left it the last time and knowing now that the last time you left really was the last time. It's trying to think of what to take with you just in case and looking at all the pictures and memories but thinking, "there's no way this won't be here when I get back." It wasn't a 2 day vacation to the country while you were gone either. It was living in a house with 10 people and no electricity for 4 days then nearly being killed over gas when you tried to make it to electricity. It's the landlord calling and saying, "come now, it's bad" and hugging the neighbor you never paid attention to before while she's trying to salvage whatever she can. It's feeling guilty over taking the last storage unit in town when the man behind you is in tears because he didn't make it fast enough. It's going into Cameron Parish and realizing that although you have it bad but made it out with most of your possessions that they don't have anything but a cement slab where a house once stood to go back to. It's watching your 70 year old grandparents trying to clean their yard all the while praying that tree didn't break the roof. But most of all, it makes you proud that you live where you do and that people are reaching out to others in the way they are.
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| Friends Only |
[08 Sep 2004|08:35pm] |
From now on my LJ is going to be friends only. I use this as a place to vent so it's somewhat personal however I'll add just about anybody. If I sound interesting enough to you, comment and I'll most likely add you. If not, then that's ok too.
Thanks tons,
Megan
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| Out of town! |
[04 Mar 2004|11:34pm] |
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I'm leaving a day early to head out of town because of some drama that I'll post about tommorrow when I get in. Now, I'm packing up and heading out of BR to take me and the dog's to Uncle Mikey's house to chill and spend the night.
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[28 Feb 2004|01:31am] |
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Today I got alot of the cleaning done and I considered going out of town but I have that project that's due Tues. and I need to start it soon. I want to make sure that I get a good grade on it so I don't screw up. Josh came into town today and it was cool. I finally told Steph the deal with her moving in and she wasn't too happy about it but what can I say? Who in their right mind expects someone to hold a room for them for over 2 months? I told her it would be a different story if she had stuff here but she doesn't really. I mean, nothing other than a few clothes. So, another one of my friends is moving in which is fine with me. Steph wasn't too concerned with getting her dad to help her pay the rent until the check came which she swore up and down would come before March 1st. So I'm not gonna stress over it. If she wants to find a 3 bedroom when the lease is up here that's fine with me but I don't know about living with 3 people again. It was cool with Angela and Sandra but they were the exception and it did seem like me and Angela ganged up on Sandra a few times without meaning too. I didn't talk to Justin today which was probably good anyway. It's so much easier to make decisions without his input. He's good with advice but sometimes I can be hard-headed and do what I want anyway. I'm getting worn out and we may go out tommorrow night so I need to try and get some shit done. If my backpack wasn't in the Jeep I'd work on my project but I can't even remember the lists of topics and I'm way too lazy to go out there in the cold and get it. When is it gonna get warm? I need sunshine!
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[26 Feb 2004|05:34pm] |
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I'm worn out cause of this weather. I wish it would be sunny for once. The dogs are all crashed out over my bed and it's funny. I talked to Justin today and we actually had a good conversation. I think we needed the time apart. It's weird how I always felt that if I ever lost him I wouldn't make it but now that we're just friends talking to him isn't upsetting. If things stay the same between us it's fine with me. I know there's alot in his life he needs to fix and I guess I wasn't enough to keep him straight. Josh is gonna come this weekend and John wants to come too so I'm excited about that. I miss John tons. I don't really know if I want to see Josh because he's leaving to go to Korea for a year and it's hard for me because I worry. I know he has no choice but to go and I'm hoping that he'll decide not to re-enlist after that. We had alot of fun times in the past and it's nice to be able to talk to him again. He's been in Alabama the whole time he's been in the Army so it's hard for me to imagine him having to go somewhere really far. I'm just glad he wasn't sent to Afganistan or Iraq. I'd worry way too much. I just made hotdogs since I hadn't eaten all day and I think I'm gonna work on cleaning tonight and seeing what all I can get done around here before everyone comes.
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| Mardi Gras is over |
[25 Feb 2004|10:51pm] |
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I had a wonderful good drunken time at Mardi Gras. The pics aren't ready yet but should be soon. It was crazy as usual but that's cool. I talked to Justin on the way back in to Baton Rouge and it went o.k. I guess. He had court today and everything worked out and he's not in jail so I'm glad. But I don't think we'll ever be like we were but that's ok with me. Steph came over after class and work (poor her) but I ran her off so I could crash. I went to an interview today looking like ass but it went good so I guess I wasn't too bad after all. I've started talking to a good friend of mine again that I haven't talked to in forever. He's a great friend and good with advice but he has to go away in a week or so for the Army. I have to come home and see him this weekend and Brent also. I saw him for a little bit on Monday but he was super sick poor baby. He's working all week so I may have to go over there this weekend. The damn townhouse next door got rented to a married couple who will probably move out soon because of us and Danielle's crazy ass antics. Mike really wanted it and I called the landlord who never called me back. But it's cool. They'll find something. I'm not sure I want to settle down just yet anyway. The dog ate my other good bra and I don't even care cause I'm soo worn out. I'm gonna chat with Josh some more and then work on this school stuff that's due next Tuesday.
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| Mardi Gras and LSU Baseball |
[20 Feb 2004|04:43pm] |
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Well fuck, I just lost this entire post so this is the 2nd time I'm having to do it. The next update I make will have pics from Mardi Gras and the weekend. We may go to the LSU baseball game tonight if it doesn't rain. We were supposed to go to LC to a party but Steph lost her liscence and the DMV wouldn't take a check so it was drama then her boss ended up lending her the cash but now we don't really feel like going. On a good note though, Jayne got her dog back. Some people found her and saw the ad in the paper. We're thinking her old roommate must've dropped her off there because there's no way in hell she came that far. The poor little weenie dog would've have to cross at least 6 major traffic areas. As long as she's safe now it's cool. I don't really feel like going to the baseball game but I told Steph I would. I don't care much for baseball in the first place and after living in the same apt. building as alot of the players I'm tired of them. But no big deal. The tickets are free so I guess I can't complain too much. It's better than wasting gas money to go to LC for a party. I really wanted to see Josh though because he's been gone so long but he'll be home for 20 days before he goes overseas for another year. It's hard with everyone in the military going here and there and it's super sad when they go. I'm hoping Mike desides against the Air Force and moves down here with Brent cause we'd have tons of fun. My mom is supposed to come stay Sunday night with us because she's never seen the new place yet. I've gotta go get ready to go to the game but I have zero motivation to go. I'm hoping it rains.
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| Interesting night |
[19 Feb 2004|12:55pm] |
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Tuesday I wasn't feeling so well but I called Mike and him and Brent decided to come over and visit. Brent is incredibly gorgeous and super sweet. We kinda hung around until Steph left to go back home and get some clothes and stuff since she still hasn't moved her stuff up because every damn weekend it rains. Brent and I were talking about the relationship between me and Justin and all the drama and everything. Mike ended up watching some Jenna Jameson and crashing out in my room on my bed so Brent and I stayed downstairs on the futon. I won't go into all the gory details but I GOT SOME!!!!! He was incredible and he's coming back by himself to stay the weekend. If he didn't live 2 hours away things would be different but I was telling them about the townhouse next door being empty and Mike really wants to come over here and work at the casino until he gets back in school. So they're gonna check out some jobs next week and we'll see. I told them we didn't mind them crashing here until they find a good place to live so who knows. I guess I'm always lucky because when I end a relationship I don't suffer for long before I find something better. If it doesn't work out with Brent we'll always be friends because we've known each other so long. I have a huge project to do over the Mardi Gras holiday so I think I'm gonna start tonight and try to finish most of it today and tommorrow. It's an outline for Arguementation and Debate that's worth 15% of our grade. I'm gonna take a few summer school classes I guess since Steph's med school goes during the summer this semester so I'll have her to wake me up and make me go. I don't know what I'm taking yet but I'm gonna try to get my Spanish class in and my Business Law. I'm thinking it's a little too hard for summer school but I can try.
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| Unsaid Words |
[16 Feb 2004|08:29pm] |
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I'm not bitter, I'm not mad. Well maybe a little. I wasted 3 years of my life trying to help you only to watch you go down the drain in the end. I'm sorry that I confided so much in you. I can't see myself ever opening up to anyone else the way I have with you. What hurts the most is that you're a good person with a wonderful heart but have no direction. You're wasting away and I'm sorry I couldn't help you get back to life. I feel cheated now that you know my innermost thoughts and feelings and you don't really give a shit. I don't understand how that much love, trust and caring goes away so fast. I didn't even want to be here anymore but now I'm glad you were the reason I came. Because now I have a whole army of wonderful people in my life that I wouldn't have otherwise known had I not packed up and moved to be with you. I lost you but in the end I gained so much more that is lasting. Why is it that I sit here and cry but you've lost the ability to feel? If I could go back and change things would they be any different? Is there something I did wrong or was this bound to happen all along? Why did you have to kick me when I was down? I know you didn't mean it but that doesn't change the fact that it happened. I don't understand you anymore. Maybe you had to change but why mess with something that is was perfect to begin with. I just plain don't understand. The more I try to understand the more it hurts. How long will I sit here and hurt? I seem to be lucky, I always have someone to pick me up after things like this but what if I don't now? I'd give anything to know what was inside your head. You're not the same to me anymore. I want to hate you but I can't. I want to make you pay, but I can't. Why?
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| Drama on Thursday |
[13 Feb 2004|02:19pm] |
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Yesterday started out normal. Then Steph calls and says Jayne's dog is missing. She has a little weenie dog. So we jet over to Jayne's after Steph gets off work and she thinks her crazy old roommate stole her. She sent Jayne a text message that said "dogsnatcher, woof woof" so we're pretty sure she has her. So, Jayne's trying to get her new address and we're gonna go over there and see if we can get her back. So while we're over there making Jayne feel better I get a voicemail from Hanna saying she was in a wreck and she was really sorry she hadn't got in touch with me. Hanna and I lived together until she wrote a hot check for October's rent and then couldn't pay in November. Turns out, Nov. 22nd she was going somewhere to drop her bf's Expedition off that they just sold and an 18 wheeler ran a stop sign and plowed into her. Well Jada her dog was in the front seat and was knocked to the back seat and her neck was broken. Hanna was stuck in the front and her bf was following her and he tried to get her out. Her leg is all torn up and she broke alot of ribs and had no medical insurance and is waiting on court from the wreck so I feel really bad for her. I'm gonna go up and visit since she can't really drive down here. So yesterday was pretty interesting. I'm glad to not be the center of the drama for once. Steph is staying the weekend so it oughta be good. I have to go take a shower since me and Steph have to go up to Prairieville later on possibly to try and find Jayne's dog.
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I know this may seem trivial but I wanted to put this up because I just found out Jadas gone now. General and Tippy miss you very much and we love you! More on that and yesterday's drama later.
Jada "Tator" Britt w/The General
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| I Hate my Teacher |
[12 Feb 2004|12:41pm] |
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So I go all the way to class and sit through IR which is sooo boring then walk all the way across campus for my Argumentation and Debate class and the damn teacher isn't there. I worked soo hard on the case she gave us to do and all for nothing. Shit! It's bad weather too and of course as I was walking to my Jeep it starts to pour. Then I get by the bank and realize that my check I had to deposit is still on my refrigerator so I go back home and get it then back to the bank where I wait in line behind 3 old people that don't know WTF they're doing. So it's only 12:43 and today already sucks. I have my Psych research to do tonight also which I've put off all week. I'm so ready for warm weather. I hate the cold so much I'd rather sweat to death than be cold.
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[11 Feb 2004|07:23pm] |
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I'm so tired of this rain. It's supposed to be like this all week. I had to go to Wal-Mart and get some more carpet cleaning stuff because somehow there is ink at the top of my stairs. Steph was like we've been here 2 weeks and the carpet's already getting fucked. But that's just how we are. It's not too bad and I got it all out so no big deal. I missed school today because I couldn't find my umbrella. Yeah I know I'm a puss but that's ok. It flooded bad all over Brightside so I'm in my Jeep on the way to Wal-Mart blowing water and shit all over people and having the time of my life. Steph is moving in the rest of her stuff this weekend so we may or may not get to Tiger Bar this weekend. I need to mail Justin the money I owe him since he won't bother to call. Everyone is saying for me to keep it since it was a gift and he said he didn't care to be paid back but I know he's having a rough time right now and he could really use it plus I don't really have any hard feelings anymore for him. But on another hand I'm afraid he'd use it on Coke and not for bills so it's a hard decision. My front outside light already burnt out so I'm gonna have to call one of the guys to change it. Sucks. I need to read my chapter in Argumentation and Debate some time tonight. Mike was supposed to come spend the night last night but his fuel line in his truck leaked or something so he didn't come. Which was ok because I was too tired anyway. He got it fixed and wants to come this weekend but we've got so much going on. I will miss being alone some nights when Steph fully moves in cause I'm used to privacy and not worrying about anyone else being home if I'm hooking up. So I'm trying to take advantage while I can. When I lived with Hanna she heard us all the time and never said a thing for the longest so I loved her for that. I just found a Jenna Jameson and Janine porn someone downloaded along with some other stuff so I'm gonna go check that out.
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| School sucks ass! |
[10 Feb 2004|12:24am] |
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I've been so busy with school and it's driving me crazy. I just got done working on a case that took forever. I finally found it on the internet because the printout I had was too small to freakin read. So this weekend was kinda dramatic. Saturday night we went out drinking and I didn't eat all day so I ended up puking. I made it until we got on Brightside Dr. and puked out the window of Krista's car so I managed to at least not do it where anyone could see but her and Steph. I was in the back seat facing away from the road. Then we all get in bed and crash and my brother calls at like 2:45 and he was upset and on pills so I talked to him and I was freaking out and Steph woke up. So after we got off the phone, Steph and I ordered Plucker's and had it delivered at like 5 til 3. He said they'd be an hour but the damn train came and he got there at 4:15 and the food was stone ass cold. We were sitting on the stairs waiting cause Krista was crashing on the couch and she had work early. We woke her up and she was like, "stop whispering like fucking kids" We were too drunk and tired to complain about the food so we ate and then went to bed. We got up and went to Denham for Steph's cousin's christening and that was pretty short so we headed to Walker to eat at their house. Then we slipped out after we ate to go see Brittney then came home and cleaned, studied and waited on Steph's date. He turned out to be a wack job so I sat up with them and watched some of Bad Boys too. Steph said she was tired halfway through the movie and he left so we finished it and went to bed. I didn't go to school today so I'm catching up on all my work and junk. My back is hurting like hell from that wreck and I need to go to the DR. but can't make any time. Now I'm going to get Danielle next door to smoke a cigarette to take a break then go to bed.
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